Random thoughts that accumulate over time

 I wish there was someone writing down all my thoughts, I know that could be me, but every time I try to write down what I am thinking I get lost, and all the words lose their meaning.

Every night before bed I accumulate millions of thoughts which If I could write down would become a nice piece to read, but also each night I decide I will write down these thoughts tomorrow... And tomorrow never comes. Tomorrow never comes but thoughts reappear while I am doing the most random things, doing the dishes or cleaning my apartment. And again, I keep thinking about these thoughts that I will eventually write down. But tomorrow never comes...

There are a lot of things for whose tomorrow never comes.

And you spend a lifetime of wishing that tomorrow is the actual day that you will find the courage and make a change, the thing you are wishing for yourself almost every day, but courage fails you every time.

And the next day comes and there will be another tomorrow, and you hope and hope that things will change, and you forget that the tomorrow that never comes was already yesterday.

30

 Here's to 30!

20's were definitely a rollercoaster. I had fun, I laughed, I cried and got my heart broken multiple times and stitched it together again and again. I left all that I had ever known and started from scratch.

I beat my biggest fears and I won my biggest wars. I raised the white flag to all my enemies and forgave all that wronged me. I had fun while struggling and got desperate when I was feeling the happiest.

20's were definitely something...

I improved myself and I learned from my mistakes, and learned how to make new ones, constantly because that's how you learn and remember.

I only had myself as a shoulder to lean on and that made me even stronger that I thought I could be.

I climbed mountains and fell on my face multiple times, learning how to rise stronger each time.

I became a version of myself that I am proud to look in the mirror.

20's were definitely something...

I made memories, friends and some of them are now strangers. Not everyone is supposed to follow you in your 30's. I am not sad that most of the "friends" left... I get to have the ones that chose to stay, the ones that I am proud to call "chosen family".

I cried so much, desperately cried to grow old and live the life I have today. I think we are all trying to grow up and get lost in the process, forgetting how to enjoy every day. And time goes by so fast, and you can't get it back. The important thing is to have no regrets. It doesn't matter how many times you failed, you made wrong choices, you acted foolishly, it brought you to where you are today. And today feels like the right place to be. Just remember to be grateful for each day you get to live, for each laughter, for every happy tear, for every little thing that you consider important, like a good coffee, a good hair day, a great meal or a beautiful sunset...You get to experience this every time you open your eyes, and each day is a new adventure. Do not rush anymore. Try to live... Do not take things for granted. You don't know how many more pages you get to write, so why not write it as you would like. Do not postpone things anymore! Live and laugh a little more...

So, here's to 30. To many mistakes and great memories!